LUST AND ME

I AM SHY, FOR WHAT ASKING TO MYSELF, SHY BECAUSE EVERYONE WATCHING ME. WITH THEIR OWN DESIRES WHICH MADE ME TO THINK DISTINCTIVE FROM BEING A HUMAN. WHAT THEY DON’T THINK, IS THEY HAVE ONE AT MAY AS A FAMILY MEMBER. FOR THEM, PEOPLE ARE OVERPROTECTIVE WHEN IT COME TO theirs. EVERYONE TRY TO ACQUIRE WHATEVER IT TAKES AS A GOAL TO ACHIEVE.

BUT, I CAME TO UNDERSTAND THESE SWEET TALK, APPRECIATION, COMPLIMENT, GIFT AND MOST IMPORTANT THESE FAKE HELPING FOR ME. ARE JUST TO SHOW HOW RESPECTFUL THEY ARE TO ME- IN RETURN THEY EXPECT SOMETHING. WHAT SOMETHING THAT IS VERY SPECIAL TO ME. WHY SHOULD I GIVE. LUST AND ME ARE VERY GOOD FRIEND FROM VERY BEGINNING SINCE CHILDHOOD.

I FEEL IT WHILE HUGGING OR ANYONE TOUCHES ME. Sometimes THEY GIFT ME AND I WAS GREEDY ENOUGH BUT DIDN’T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOOD TOUCH OR BAD TOUCH. NOW AT THE STREET, OFFICE AND ANYWHERE I HAD A CONFUSION THAT WHAT PEOPLE TRY TO SEE. WHEN I BENT DOWN TO PICK SOMETHING. OR HOW I WALK SOME TRY TO FOLLOW MY WAY OR SOME CLOSE THEIR EYES TO FEEL ME IN THE WAY THEY WANT. I ASKED MY ELDER THE SOLUTION. THE ANSWER WAS ASTONISHING to LET IT GO OR DON’T GO OUTSIDE.

IF I LET IT GO THINGS WILL INCREASE DAY BY DAY FOR ME AND OTHERS. IF I DON’T GO OUTSIDE THE EMPOWERMENT WILL STOP.

WE NEED TO CHANGE THE MENTALITY OF THOSE WHO DON’T RESPECT.

devil vs God

what everybody think of satan a being with red color skin with 2 horn on forehead always influencing people to go on evil path. and my answer is no. because every either supernatural or natural wants monopoly to rule.

but condition changes, as before the only god have all knowledge after Lucifer was made as ” most powerful and beautiful creation”. he was most belove and truest one. as more and more creature was created lucifer come to know something that made him go against god. so he denies, satan was the only one who made adam and eve to eat the apple of knowledge. also got knowledge. that there are suffering, there is hell and there is the earth where we will be left alone without help and people of humanity will fight to each other to prove themself. in the most religious book there is a concept that God knows everything. then why he didn’t stop lucifer even he was very close to god reach. maybe it was God’s plan to make them down to earth. to make them suffer. God wants people to be killed, fight with each other, suffer from the disease, exploit and god will never come to help us. according to me, so many pandemic diseases have been encountered no one can say that god helps to remove it.

“Nomy friend only knowledge helps us weather it is related to science or technology os anything. and knowledge come to humanity by apple of knowledge. the most popular religion holy book have said many disturbing noticeable thing of prophets. such as

bribing the people to fight in the name of religion and get paradise with most beautiful women “known as hoor”. Islam pretends to save women from the exploitation of women then also the sahaba’s have sex with the ‘girls’ slave of wars and killed the men (religion of peace).also if anyone leaves religion from Islam to other must be killed, they treat transgender as unhuman ” no right to leave” same with gay ” they kill them”

so i think god seek people to be suffer and ask help where satam is the reason which help us to get knowledge when humanity was not able to stand on there feet. dont be in a myth by the unlogic books.

eg. “Q” god says every living being was created with pairs but there is a frog in Africa born as male and die as female by laying egg. —“NOT EVERYWHERE SATAN IS DESTRUCTIVE BUT ALSO GOD IS RESPONSIBLE SO DON’T BLAME SATAN

“MOTHER, Oh my son”

I WAS VERY HAPPY ENJOYING THE PAIN OF YOUR DELIVERY THOUGHT ” YOU WILL BE THE ONE REASON TO LIVE”. BUT YOU MADE ME FEEL WRONG AS NOW YOU DON’T EVEN TALK TO ME. EVERY NEW DAY I AM LIVING WITH THE HOPE THAT ” MY SON” WILL COME BACK TO SEE ME, TO LOVE AND CARE FOR. WHAT YOU ARE TODAY IS BECAUSE OF MY STRUGGLES AFTER YOUR DAD LEAVE US ALONE.DO YOU REMEMBER THOSE FREEZING WINTER NIGHT WHERE TEMPERATURE WAS ABOUT 1 DEGREE, SHIVERING WITH HIGH FEVER I WAS THERE AS SHIELD OF WARM DRAPERY, AS DOCTOR TO CURE, A WARRIOR TO PROTECT AND A CUSTODIAN TO MAKE YOU SURVIVE WHEN YOU WERE DEFENSELESS. BUT, NOW WHEN I AM AT THE STAGE OF AGED HELPLESSNESS WITH MY INSOLINE LEVEL, NO TEETH IN MOUTH, WRINKLE SKIN SEEMS HELPLESS WITH NO ENERGY TO WORK. MY HONORABLE SON MR. BUSY BY THE WORDS. I HAVE NO INTENTION TO MAKE YOU FEEL HOW MUCH YOU OWE ME. WHAT I WANT IS TO BE PART IN YOUR BUSY SHEDULE WHERE WE BOTH JOIN BREAKFAST WITH SOME JOKE SOMETIME IF POSSIBLE A DINNER.

HOPE FOR POSITIVE RESPONSE.

YOUR TRULY.

MOTHER.