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LUST AND ME

I AM SHY, FOR WHAT ASKING TO MYSELF, SHY BECAUSE EVERYONE WATCHING ME. WITH THEIR OWN DESIRES WHICH MADE ME TO THINK DISTINCTIVE FROM BEING A HUMAN. WHAT THEY DON’T THINK, IS THEY HAVE ONE AT MAY AS A FAMILY MEMBER. FOR THEM, PEOPLE ARE OVERPROTECTIVE WHEN IT COME TO theirs. EVERYONE TRY TO ACQUIRE WHATEVER IT TAKES AS A GOAL TO ACHIEVE.

BUT, I CAME TO UNDERSTAND THESE SWEET TALK, APPRECIATION, COMPLIMENT, GIFT AND MOST IMPORTANT THESE FAKE HELPING FOR ME. ARE JUST TO SHOW HOW RESPECTFUL THEY ARE TO ME- IN RETURN THEY EXPECT SOMETHING. WHAT SOMETHING THAT IS VERY SPECIAL TO ME. WHY SHOULD I GIVE. LUST AND ME ARE VERY GOOD FRIEND FROM VERY BEGINNING SINCE CHILDHOOD.

I FEEL IT WHILE HUGGING OR ANYONE TOUCHES ME. Sometimes THEY GIFT ME AND I WAS GREEDY ENOUGH BUT DIDN’T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOOD TOUCH OR BAD TOUCH. NOW AT THE STREET, OFFICE AND ANYWHERE I HAD A CONFUSION THAT WHAT PEOPLE TRY TO SEE. WHEN I BENT DOWN TO PICK SOMETHING. OR HOW I WALK SOME TRY TO FOLLOW MY WAY OR SOME CLOSE THEIR EYES TO FEEL ME IN THE WAY THEY WANT. I ASKED MY ELDER THE SOLUTION. THE ANSWER WAS ASTONISHING to LET IT GO OR DON’T GO OUTSIDE.

IF I LET IT GO THINGS WILL INCREASE DAY BY DAY FOR ME AND OTHERS. IF I DON’T GO OUTSIDE THE EMPOWERMENT WILL STOP.

WE NEED TO CHANGE THE MENTALITY OF THOSE WHO DON’T RESPECT.

“MOTHER, Oh my son”

I WAS VERY HAPPY ENJOYING THE PAIN OF YOUR DELIVERY THOUGHT ” YOU WILL BE THE ONE REASON TO LIVE”. BUT YOU MADE ME FEEL WRONG AS NOW YOU DON’T EVEN TALK TO ME. EVERY NEW DAY I AM LIVING WITH THE HOPE THAT ” MY SON” WILL COME BACK TO SEE ME, TO LOVE AND CARE FOR. WHAT YOU ARE TODAY IS BECAUSE OF MY STRUGGLES AFTER YOUR DAD LEAVE US ALONE.DO YOU REMEMBER THOSE FREEZING WINTER NIGHT WHERE TEMPERATURE WAS ABOUT 1 DEGREE, SHIVERING WITH HIGH FEVER I WAS THERE AS SHIELD OF WARM DRAPERY, AS DOCTOR TO CURE, A WARRIOR TO PROTECT AND A CUSTODIAN TO MAKE YOU SURVIVE WHEN YOU WERE DEFENSELESS. BUT, NOW WHEN I AM AT THE STAGE OF AGED HELPLESSNESS WITH MY INSOLINE LEVEL, NO TEETH IN MOUTH, WRINKLE SKIN SEEMS HELPLESS WITH NO ENERGY TO WORK. MY HONORABLE SON MR. BUSY BY THE WORDS. I HAVE NO INTENTION TO MAKE YOU FEEL HOW MUCH YOU OWE ME. WHAT I WANT IS TO BE PART IN YOUR BUSY SHEDULE WHERE WE BOTH JOIN BREAKFAST WITH SOME JOKE SOMETIME IF POSSIBLE A DINNER.

HOPE FOR POSITIVE RESPONSE.

YOUR TRULY.

MOTHER.